Naked

Lately, I've been analyzing the songs that I really like especially that of Tracy Bonham. There are certain things that I feel that can only be explained through songs or music. Naked is one of the songs that I've been playing on my mp3 today and it goes like this:

My stubborn skin is wearing thin
I bared my soul you waltzed right in
I gave you everything and you just made me feel so very
Naked, and I can't remember how I let myself become so unraveled
I'm naked pretty as a heart ache
waiting for my second skin to settle in

I spilled my guts on your best shoes

You keep it in I let it loose

It's only love that makes me feel like getting so completely

Naked and I can't remember how I let myself become so unraveled

I'm naked pretty as a heart ache

waiting for my second skin to settle in

Your hardened heart can't hide you now

It loves as much as you allow

And in the end the eyeball army will just take you down and you'll be

Naked nothing but a heart ache

and you know there's

Nothing that can hide you now

You're naked pretty as a heart beat going out exactly how you came in.

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I guess, there can never be no greater feeling of being "naked" to someone standing in front of you, i mean not in the physical sense of the word but you know, letting yourself be vulnerable.

You can never be ready whenever you fall. It just comes whenever you least expect it.

El Laberinto Del Fauno (Pan's Labyrinth)

I am one of those who loved fairy tales when I was young. We have a collection of fairy tale books that I would often take out and look at the pictures. It was more fun when my Dad used to read it for me whenever he had time after work or during weekends. I didn't have a wild imagination when I was a kid. Unlike the others, I wouldn't see myself as one of the main characters. I was just a mere spectator as I am now whenever I read or watch something.

I just finished watching Guillermo del Toro's Pan's Labyrinth (El Laberinto Del Fauno) on DVD. As an adult, I thought I wouldn't like it because I've already outgrown childhood fairy tales but the movie proved me wrong. It is the kind of fantasy film that draws young and old people alike. It is dark, enchanting, magical and has a brutally sad ending that it left me teary-eyed.

The Plot

The movie opens as a fairy tale. A young girl who's wounded and almost lifeless on the ground travels in the fantasy world she created. It was set in 1944 after the Spanish Civil War. The young girl, Ofelia was travelling with her pregnant mother, Carmen to the country to live with her stepfather, the brutal and sadistic Captain Vidal. At nightfall, the imaginative young Ofelia encounters a fairy and together they went into the labyrinth and into the pit of the maze, a faun surfaces and tells her that she is a princess of the underworld where her father awaits her. But the girl has to do three difficult tasks before she could go back to her kingdom. In the series of events, Ofelia befriends the servant, Mercedes who is a communist sympathizer and a sister of one of the rebels. In a dark and violent world, young Ofelia tries to live in her magical world so that she could do her tasks and survive the harsh reality of life and hoping that she would one day be with her father, The King.

It was a sad ending, Ofelia lost her life in the hands of her cruel stepfather, Captain Vidal.

Upon the series of events that transpired in the young girl's life, she is once again free...

The Awakening

I was awakened by a text message from my girlfriend at 8:30 A.M. saying that she was already at work. I got up and fixed myself. I turned on the computer and tried to put a blog post at blogfeast and to my dismay I can't post anything. Maybe I'm not going to see any of that earnings. Maybe not in this lifetime.

It rained the whole day. The streets were almost flooded. But I do love the rain. There's something serene about it. I don't know why. I'm just happy I suppose.

Song and Lyrics

Whether You Fall

(Tracy Bonham)

Whether it's the sunshine whether it's the rain

Doesn't make a difference 'til you complain

Whether it's the water coming in from the roof

Does it piss you off that you're not water proof?

Whether you fall means nothing at all

It's whether you get up it's whether you get up

And you hate the silence as it fills up the room

And there's not much to say to your blushing groom

Maybe all eyes are on you as you finish the race

And the world sees you struggling for last place

Whether you fall means nothing at all

It's whether you get up whether you get up.

When I first heard this song I can't stop crying just like a little girl. I heard it from a Showtime series and at the start of the show, a woman was crying trying to hold on to her lover who was about to leave her. I guess you can say that I can identify with her. The feeling of helplessness, of loss, of grief, of pain and misery- all these that makes a person human.

The only difference between the character of Alice and myself was that, I was the one who broke up with my lover and the pain was just the same.

Nothing

It is 6:25 P.M. according to my PC clock. I am staring at an almost dark sky, it's the start of the rainy season. I live in a town just a few minutes away from the city.

I am a bit frustrated because I still can't find a job after six months since graduation.
Makes me think that everything that I do is futile.

I opened an account at a blog site wherein they said they will pay you for the number of blog entries you make in a month. It is not much though but if you have plenty of time in your hands maybe, you could make 10,000 blog posts in a month that would give you 100 USD of course less taxes and stuff. My problem is I can't make an entry. I don't know why, maybe I'm just plain stupid or something. So, what did I do next? Hmm... I opened an account at blogger.com Voila! I'm here and I'm making my first entry.

It's 6:36 P.M. Nothing's changed.